Some people may consider it traditional, but I do hold a view (just for myself) that man should take up certain responsibilities such as taking care of love ones and being a dependable friend. I don’t think of these responsibilities as duties as long as they arise from within myself and not because they’re required or expected from others. It’s not as difficult to show genuine concern for a few close friends and wanting to do things or becoming better for them, but it gets harder when it comes to dealing with people outside this small circle. Ultimately, to be truly strong at heart and genuinely care about others without complain or regret, the motivation has to arise from my self and thus has to be consistent with my personal philosophy and self-interest. I think the best way to achieve this is to start small, and as I learn more about myself and the world around me, I would be able to gradually expand my concern and interests beyond myself and immediate circle and be able to live independently and provide positive energy to all those around me who need it.
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The standard greetings
The usual prattles
Act nice, look cheerful, and you’re friendly
Remain silent, nonchalant, and you’re aloof
How many selves do we have?
How many personas do we need?
Where do expectations come from?
Why should we be consistent?
Why can’t we leave others alone?
Or do we really want to be left alone?
What’s the point of social gathering?
What’s the point of dressing up?
What’s the point of following implicit social norms?
Why do I care at all?
The Sound of Silence
by Paul Simon
Hello darkness, my old friend,
I’ve come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.
In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
‘Neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dare
Disturb the sound of silence.“Fools” said I, “You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach to you.”
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silenceAnd the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
in the words that it was forming.
And the sign said, “The words of the prophetsare written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.”
And whisper’d in the sounds of silence. -
Everyone’s so different and yet so similar
What do I have?
Confidence is what I lack
It’s the reason why I’m here
It’s scary but I will face it squarely
Let’s find out what’s in me
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Give me eyes so I can see
Give me a voice so I can speak
Give me wings so I can fly
Give me a purpose so I can live
Am I asking too much?
Give me awareness to my feeling
Give me courage to learn from trials and errors
Give me strength to stand up from failures
Give me understanding to live with the world
Am I asking too much?
Ludwig Wittgenstein–Philosophy leaves the world as it is.
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Will I sink into my personaWith my self buriedAnd live like a stranger in a strange landOr will I experience the worldCome to terms with itAnd embrace it with a peace of mindThe World is Too Much with Us by William WordsworthThe world is too much with us; late and soon,Getting and spending, we lay waste our powers;Little we see in Nature that is ours;We have given our hearts away, a sordid boon!This Sea that bares her bosom to the moon,The winds that will be howling at all hours,And are up-gathered now like sleeping flowers,For this, for everything, we are out of tune;It moves us not.–Great God! I’d rather be A Pagan suckled in a creed outworn;
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I’ve been feeling dissatisfied with myself and my surrounding lately and thinking about reverting to an old self—someone who remains detaches to people and things and focus mainly on achieving goals. Just when I’m deciding to take this easy way out, a movie (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0332639/), a mail, and a painting session hit me like a wave and remind me of my ideal kind of life. I guess I’m still an idealist at heart (not the philosophical meaning of idealist, but just someone who believes in certain kind of ideal life being possible). I believe in certain kind of beauty in life–a beauty that is natural yet perfect. I’m searching for an understanding and comfort with the world, a passion and dreams that align me with the world, and some preciousness in life that are simple and free of all artificiality.
What can I do if I’m unsatisfied with life? Should I try to change myself or my view of the world? Or should I try to change the world or my surrounding instead? Or should I just compromise or find ways to adapt?
Even though I’ll continue trying to better myself, I think there’re parts in me that are hard to change either because I don’t have enough will or because deep down inside I don’t find it worthwhile to change. And I don’t have the high aspiration to change the world or the surrounding either. I also think the problem lies less with the world or other people than with me. But I guess the worst thing is to live a compromised life that’s either full of dissatisfaction or pretension to be happy.
At this moment, I think of myself as a seed. Although I can’t control how it’ll turn out to be, I can try to take care of it conscientiously to maximize its chance of growing. I can also try to find a ground, a soil, a surrounding that this seed can flourish. This place may not exists, but being an idealist, I’d want to believe there’s such a place where with constant care and effort, this little seed can survive and grow to be a magnificent tree that live harmoniously with the world and its surrounding.
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Setbacks, obstacles, humiliations, mistakes, failures, none can destroy me. As long as I keep my pride, I’ll surpass all of them and regain my confidence.
I Will
Anime Lyric from Full Metal Alchemist
Vocal by Sowelu
Translated by Li
If it’s the overflowing tears, it’s okay that they don’t stop now
Light should be shining into the finale of the sadness
stay… stay… stay… stay…
stay… stay… stay… stay…
Right, we believed in the same feeling
We gazed at the vanished memory
Now I can’t meet you
But I can hide my painful thoughts
And become stronger
I’ll go ascertain that
If it’s the overflowing tears, it’s okay that they don’t stop now
Light should be shining into the finale of the sadness
The things that I destroyed when I was too rushed
I’ll regain them, to walk like myself
Hey, let me say goodbye first
To you again back then
I believe that surely, there’s a new tomorrow
Time that passes by unhesitatingly and unhurriedly
I won’t forget the pain that changes into kindness
My heart that I wounded when I was too reckless
I’ll embrace it, for the reborn me
I Will
If it’s the overflowing tears, it’s okay that they don’t stop now
Light should be shining into the finale of the sadness
Time that passes by unhesitatingly and unhurriedly
I won’t forget the pain that changes into kindness
The things that I destroyed when I was too rushed
I’ll regain them, to walk like myself
I Will
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I can’t remember when was the last time I’ve spent New Year with my family or received a wonderful little red pocket (maybe seven years ago?). Being away from family and many of my close friends, Chinese New Year has little difference from any other day, except maybe it gave me an excuse to shirk from works and enjoy a movie borrowed from a friend. Luckily, the movie was very nice. It’s a French firm called Les Choristes (The Choir) and has a fairly simple and elegant plot with a beautiful soundtrack (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0372824/). Well, having indulge myself with plenty of ‘tasty but not so healthy foods’ and a lovely movie, I guess I should be satisfied with this Chinese New Year and put my heart back to studies.
Happy Chinese New Year to all my friends.
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Last Sunday I traveled to a small town near Cambridge called Grantchester to get away from my hectic student life and free my mind from my mid-terms. It took around 20 minutes of cycling along the river to reach the town. Although this time of year is not the best time to visit Grantchester (or anywhere in UK as January is regarded to be the darkest and gloomiest month), I like the place very much. It’s a small, quiet town with little activities going on, so people who’re looking for parties, shopping, or entertainment would probably be disappointed. But those who enjoy the idyllic mood, deep meadows and open sky along with a serene river might fall in love with this place. Whenever I immerse in the vastness of the nature, I feel the power, mysteriousness, and beauty of the universe. It helps put my life into perspective as my worries, doubts, and desires appear so small and insignificant.
After freeing my mind in the wide-open field, I went to a nearby tea shop Orchard to have some tea and a delicious cake (not something I can find often in UK). Lots of past famous figures had gathered in this place before. They include philosopher Bertrand Russell and Ludwig Wittgenstein, economist John Maynard Keynes, novelist Virginia Woolf and E.M. Forster, artist John Augustus, and poet Rupert Brooke. The people I mentioned are friends with each other and often spend their time in Grantchester when they were students at Cambridge. I can see how they come to love this place. Brooke once wrote that Grantchester is a place that will remain ‘forever England’. A great place indeed.
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I finished my mid-terms a few days ago. Nowadays I’m less able to force myself to study for exams’ sake. Maybe it’s just an excuse for not studying, but it seems no point to me to cram lots of ideas for the sake of exam without much help in understanding the topics. I’m surprised that even the day before the mid-term, I found myself reading unrelated articles on philosophy, psychology and different blogs online by economists, geeks, and artists. And naturally after seeing many great photos and artworks on the artists’ blogs, I just can’t stop the temptation of sketching and fooling around with drawing software (but too bad I can’t draw what I wanted and inspiration wasn’t on my side either). Luckily I’ve been working steadily throughout my vacation, so I don’t think the exam result would turn out too bad. And I think reading various stuffs online help me appreciates my studies more. Bloggosphere, RSS feeds, and open source online index like Wikipedia make it so easy to get access to information and people’s thoughts and works. Wonderful technology.
Here are a few articles I came across today and found interesting.
Why Is Economics So Boring?
http://www.econlib.org/library/Columns/y2005/Coxequation.html
How to Do What You Love
http://paulgraham.com/love.html
Give interesting thoughts on what does it mean to work on something you like and suggestions toward them. I found it more informative than most self-help books around on getting dream jobs.
Viagra and the Wealth of Nations
http://web.mit.edu/krugman/www/viagra.html
Is Science Killing the Soul
http://www.edge.org/3rd_culture/dawkins_pinker/dawkins_pinker_index.html
Conversations touch upon science, culture, religion, ethics, and aesthetics by two renowned scientists, one biologist and one psychologist, both follow an evolutionary approach.