Ryu's Blog

I just been through another emotional cycles. It’s the usual ups and downs people experience from time to time. At peak, the smallest things in life can be fascinating and wonderful. But near the bottom, everything in life appears to be optional and nothing seems right. I was usually the kind of person who’s pretty immune to this kind of emotional swing. When I feel down, in a bad mood, or can’t concentrate my mind, a nap will usually suffice to get me back to normal to face whatever that’s bothering me. But lately as I try to follow my heart more, it’s much harder to keep my life in balance between doing productive work and indulging in sensory experience. And I often found myself unable to concentrate during work. Perhaps listening to my feeling give me an excuse to avoid hard work or get me to think about all sorts of big life issues that can distract me from work. I’ll have to train and discipline myself more to stay productive and achieve my goals. But living a life too rigid may make me lose out on the artistic and intellectual enrichment in life, experience I definitely wouldn’t want to miss. Since I’m more or less recover from the trough, I’m planning my way forward to a more stable and satisfying period and finding ways to make my feeling and thinking selves compatible without being carried to either extreme. I may not be able to avoid the emotional cycle completely (and probably wouldn’t want to), but would want too make sure the swings wouldn’t affect other important areas in life too much.